I look forward to one day having a healthy, loving relationship—but I am very happy that I'm not in any relationship right now. This sounds counterintuitive; "Why would anyone want to be single when our government has ORDERED us to stay inside?? Don't you want companionship?!" Companionship is one thing, a relationship is another. Luckily I'm quarantined with my family, including 4 out of my 5 siblings—so I sure as hell am never bored...ever. BUT, if you're quarantined by yourself, I can completely understand your need for someone, ANYONE, to keep you company—especially a significant other. For me, again, I don't feel the need to have romantic companionship, because I have a readily available support system who I've grown up with—a huge plus, in my case.
Right now I'm thankful I'm not in a relationship, because there would be quite a few strains put upon it. Personally I don't want to live with a boyfriend unless he's my fiancé, so we would be living apart anyway, and I wouldn't be able to see him. I would feel distant from him, we would both be experiencing financial strain—everything would be a mess. This could be a negative outlook, but realistically from what I've seen and heard, having a boyfriend or girlfriend (who doesn't live with you) right now is not ideal.
Back in the beginning of March, I wanted to start seeing this guy—then, covid happened. Not like I wanted to spend the rest of my life with this guy, but I at least wanted to go on a date and see if we were compatible. I'm glad nothing happened before all this virus stuff started, because it would've fizzled out from the strain of corona, not giving us much of a chance to see if we liked each other. But who knows, maybe after all this is over we can reconnect (I'll keep you all posted, if you're interested).
Now that I'm stuck in my dad's apartment without a job (hooray), I'm going full-force into my blog and YouTube channel. I'm the kind of person now when something like a PANDEMIC happens, I want to be productive to get my mind off of it; it helps me feel in control of something, since everything else seems completely out of hand. I'm learning better editing skills for my videos; how to use the design platform I signed up for to make graphics for my videos and Instagram; how to grow my YouTube channel—the works. It's been a fantastic way to work on something I'm proud of in the safety of my own home; even if I'm not getting paid for it (yet), I'm happy to be doing something that allows me to be creative and receive feedback from people who interact with my content.
If you're single and at home, and feel like being productive is a healthy way for you to cope with quarantine, I highly recommend delving into a hobby you can do either online, or with supplies you have in your house. If you have a spare notebook or one that's only partially used, turn it into a short story book and write down a series of plots that have been running through your dreams lately—or learn to make origami from the extra sheets of paper and a handy YouTube channel on the subject. Go through your clothes and see what you could sell on apps like Poshmark or thredUP once quarantine has ended; maybe learn a few phrases in a language you've always wanted to learn; make funny videos with your pet hamster and share them on TikTok—there are lots of little things you could do that make you happier and take your mind off of corona, even for just a few minutes.
Being single, to me, is a huge gift during a time like the coronavirus. Everyone has different coping skills during something like a goddamn pandemic, so being single for you may have you feeling different than I do—and that's fine! If you are similar to me, being single allows you to be more in tune with yourself and your needs. You can sleep however much you want; journal throughout the day to process your feelings; reflect on how you've changed over the past year; have zoom sessions with friends and family; watch Conan O'Brien at-home specials on YouTube and have a good laugh while eating your tenth Oreo—it's all about you.
Once this is all over, you can get dressed up again and go out on dates, and it will feel amazing to start connecting with people in person again. I know I can't wait to see my friends again and go grab a drink, and see if I can get in touch with that cute guy to see if we're a good match. Right now though, I'm glad I can focus on me and my hobbies that I can luckily do from home. I don't have to worry about a guy I just started seeing, and instead can be with my family and make sure they're staying healthy and away from coughing people. To me, not having a romantic partner is one less thing to worry about during the coronavirus.
To all my single peeps: be thankful for being with just you for the time being, and look forward to the future when you could meet that special someone who will add a lot of happiness to your life that you've already been crafting for yourself.
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